Day23: “Instead of focusing on how much you can accomplish, focus on how much you can absolutely love what you’re doing.” ― Leo Babauta

Wed/Thu, 07/08-Nov-2012;1:45am
Electronic City, Bangalore

Wednesday was one such day when I had complete ambivalence in thoughts about various things, was not feeling confident enough, do not know the reason for this uncertainty inside though.

Got up at 6:55 am in the morning only to rush for the Gym, reached at 7:30 and did some 30-35 minutes of sprinting on the elliptical trainer and treadmill burning out 250 Cal. Good thing about the day was when I received my red Badge which Wiproites receive on completion of 5 years of service (would be completing my 5 years of association with Wipro on 12th Nov 2012). Received few complements from colleagues for the same.

At work, I was not focused enough though did some report gathering work for my module's execution. At the end of day, gathered info on filling my appraisal. Hated the set-dosa dinner with all sour-in-taste 'sambhar' and 'chatni'. Retired to bed immediately after that (9pm) only to get up at 1am.

Returning to bed once again,
Good Night/Good Morning to all
Thu, 08-Nov-12, 2:05am

P.S: M-70: M2W3D9 completed - Sprinting on Elliptical/Treadmill - 250 Cal Burnout.

Day22: The tendency to whining and complaining may be taken as the surest sign symptom of little souls and inferior intellects. -Lord Jeffrey

Tuesday,06-Nov-2012;11:15pm
Electronic City, Bangalore

I chose to rest my body after yesterday's 450 plus calorie burn-out. Also, the portion below my knee in right leg was paining a bit, so opted for a repose.

Did some decent work at office and received accolades from Teammates and Manger for the same. Got complements with words like "you are doing everything a Manager would do". I feel when you take that extra-responsibility with the commitment towards your work people appreciate your endeavor. Thanks to my Teammate.

One habit which I wish to root out of me is the habit of complaining, complaining about the management, complaining about situations, complaining about time, luck, people and many more. Earlier in my life, many a times, I have vowed to self that I won't complain for anything, but I do not keep on my words for long and get back into the trap of complaining. Friends, Do you have any suggestions to get me out of this petty circle of complaining?

The following lines of Johann motivate a bit....
I will not be as those who spend the day in complaining of headache, and the night in drinking the wine that gives it. -Johann Wolfgang von Goethe


Good Night.
11:30pm

Day21: Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going. -(Jim Ryan)

Monday,05-Nov-2012; 9:20pm
Electronic City, Bangalore

M-70 Updates: M2W3D8 - 1.Elliptical Machine : 30 min (-300 Cal) 2. Light Exercises (Weights) 3. Treadmill : 15 min (-100 Cal)
Diet: 1. Breakfast (Idlis,2 Nos.) 2. Lunch: Chicken Kebab Combo 3. Afternoon: Green Tea  4.Dinner: Fried Rice mixed Manchurian (Not recommended)

Dinner was a cheat meal for the day.Otherwise diet wise and work-out wise, this Monday was Okay. At work, didn't feel like working through out the day and was feeling sluggish, drained out of energy.

Today is the 21st day, they say for a thing to become a habit, you must do it at least for 21 days continually. I wish to be more consistent and inculcate many more good habits in life. Amen! :)

Feeling too tired to write any more. Signing off for the day. Good Night.

Narendra Gupta
9:25pm

Day20: "If you listen to your heart and do your work with genuine honesty and not for the sake of the word, you are bound to succeed"....Mr. Yash Chopra

Sunday,04-Nov-2012;10:15pm
Electronic City, Bangalore

I was deeply moved by the last interview video of Yash Jee with Shahrukh, that I saw on You tube today (yes, saw every minute of the almost 2 hour long video). The legendary director talks about the struggle in early days of his career and the big decision he took to start his own production house, the YRF in 1971 parting ways from his legendary brother Mr. B.R Chopra. I liked when he spoke about the situations he was facing then, he said he was married and was soon going to become father, he was facing lots of financial constraints and eventually took this risk, today Yash Raj Production is one of the top production companies in the world. The catch phrase for me and the reason for the grand success in his 60 years of film career that he mentioned was "If you listen to your heart and do your work with genuine honesty, not for the sake of the word, you are bound to succeed". Great words Yash Jee, you inspire me and million others to succeed in their vista of life by listening to their heart and then pursuing on it with 'complete' and 'genuine' honesty. Eagerly waiting for your ultimate release, JTHJ. RIP, the holy soul.

Early in the day, I read 'The Now Habit' for about 30 minutes though took some lessons of a life time from it. Only after reading this book, I realized that I had been suffering from the disease called "PROCRASTINATION" since early childhood days. I used to Put off Living when some big project/exam/event used to come which I have been following till date. I used to give up amusements, playing games, extra-curricular activity, etc and just wanted and thought of work (at that time work meant studies). Nothing has changed still. I think of making things perfect and that I find as an excuse to put off to a later date. The same happened when I wanted to begin writing on my blog. I feared how people would anticipate, I must make it big on my standards, I feared of the unknown, what If I fail. As I go on reading this book, I discover all the symptoms of a Procrastinator, deeply rooted inside me and then I realize why and how the Producers (Performers) made/make the difference. I realized that I have been motivating myself in the wrong way trapping self in the words of "I have to, I must...and putting undue pressure on me causing anxiety and no/least progress" I love word-by-word and sentence-by-sentence of this book and If you are reading me, I would certainly recommend this book by Neil Fiore, a must read for those who are in the habit of putting off things in some or the other aspects of their life.

For M-70, which has been pending for past 2 years, I would always think, Let me complete the exam well (during my MS in UK) and then I will start working on fitness, Let me make a Job shift and then I will start working on fitness...and so on. Unfortunately nothing could materialize off late but fortunately I got the understanding and realization that I must begin even one step at a time. I feel a little self-worth that I have started it now. Yes, I have started working on my fitness. It's been 2 weeks (with 7 work-out days).  It's far from reaching my Goal of 70 Kgs and the real challenge for me is the consistency. As of now, I just see making 3/4 days the coming week which starts tomorrow.

Coming week will carry that Diwali flavor and its a good feeling to see and experience how the mood of people remain upbeat during all this festive season. Looking forward to the coming week with much zest..

Wish you all a Happy Monday!

Good Night to all.
10:40pm

P.S. Okay, I just recalled, this is time for our mid-term appraisals. I hate filling in Appraisals and it has been a record that I have filled all my appraisals either on the last day or beyond that. Something I hate doing and have been PROCRASTINATING on it ever since its inception in life :) 09th Oct is the last date. So to cure my Procrastination on this aspect, I have decided to begin today, fill it part by part and to submit it before 09th.

Day19:The greatest amount of wasted time is the time not getting started .......(Dawson Trotman)

Saturday,03-Nov-12;10:15pm
Electronic City, Bangalore

For ages, I have been deeply rooted in the clutches of Procrastination. Yes, this weekend I vow to reading the book 'The Now Habit' which has been pending 'unfinished' for last few months.

Tomorrow , would do my best to share a brief summary of the book in my words. Having said that, I wind up today.

Sharing one of the poems, I got to read on fellow blogger's site:

The Fighter

My world was dark, mess of a life,
No single place for joy to thrive,
The stunning solitude piercingly mute,
No saviour, no restitute.

Where shall I head, no place in sight,
And then there was light at the end of night.
The tide subsided, retreated the wave,
Alas! I missed the gems they gave.

I went ahead in the light so great,
Snubbing those hateful memories out straight,
My feet came to an abrupt halt,
As I stopped, the big tree called.

I looked at the tree mighty yet kind,
Braving the sun as well as the wind,
I too can be audacious, intrepid still,
I shall fight, yes, I will.

I can’t elude the miseries and torments,
Deeply woven in the fabric of life’s garment.
“Confront them, O self, and emerge smiling,
Ready to tackle the ones following.”

Beatific was I in the aura divine,
When the eternal fact reached my mind,
Sorrows, like joy, are shadows of life,
Engaging us throughout, to strive.

Why face the adversities then?
Just to armour for the next one?
And then another next, and the next still,
What’s life with such distasteful drill?

The delusion haunted me night and day,
Until I heard myself say,
“O dear self, fear mot any more,
Look at the sky, high should you soar.

“Million people walk the earth,
More than a half get unnoticed death,
Anguishingly they embrace the pyre,
Leave no trace after the fire.

“A few are epoch-making ones,
Reverberating, as generations come,
But not all can aspire to be such,
Else history loses its meaning much.

“Most of the remaining fear to bite the dust,
Craven beings, they too rot and rust.
You merit a better place, dear me,
For all battles fought courageously.

“Death, you know, is the inevitable one,
But you are content after battles won.
You belong now to those high ranks,
Who smile at death as another prank.”

                                           

                                            Courtesy: Aniket Anand, http://aniketanand.wordpress.com

Good Night, Sweet Dreams to all.

Narendra Gupta

10:25pm

Day18: Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. (Harriet Tubman)

Friday,02-Nov-2012;10:50pm
Electronic City, Bangalore

While the temperature in Bangalore has taken a plunge, my temperament to give the best shot at work and work-out remains upbeat. I actually feel better after exhausting my body in the Gym for 35-40 minutes, I feel better in other areas of Life, be it work, be it dealing with people, be it dealing with personal issues, be it resolving my family worries. I must say, I feel good after many many years,though, it's just the beginning.

Reached office at 7:25am and did about 35-40 minutes of workout (Exercise Set 2 by Jack, my Trainer in UK) Thereafter, started the my thirst for work, yes, the work which I love. I am enjoying my work all these days, certainly this phase has come after a long time. Thank you GOD. you have been so kind. It was a nice busy but satisfactory day all in all.

I had started this blog (Mai Narendra) with 3 things in mind:
1. To shed off my habit of Procrastination - First one in the list is M-70, a Goal which I had made around 2 years back, but could never keep up my words to self, Just b'coz of my habit of putting off things to a later date.

2. To become consistent in important areas of my Life - Be it Exercising, Studying, Maintaining Relationship and so on.

3. To express my-self to the world, What I as an individual think about self, things thereby sharing my inspirations,my life-style.

I stop here today and give the next 5 minutes to self thinking on things which I have been procrastinating in past few months. Switching my Job is the next big thing on mind.

Good Night to all friends and well-wisher and all lovely people reading me,

Narendra Gupta
11:25pm

Day17: “Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than to hurt yourself putting it back together.” - Anonymous

Thursday,01st Nov 2012;9:00pm

Electronic City, Bangalore

Yet another exciting day of Life passes by....and I continue living with all my imperfections with all joy and happiness, I embrace LIFE like I embrace WIFE :)

Once again, would start with the weather here in Bangalore, It's been raining for almost 48 hours now, probably the effect of Lady Neelam, 'the cyclone', which has hit the coastal regions of TN and Andhra.... It was a holiday at office owing to the Karnataka formation day and this holiday could not have come at a better time when it is raining incessantly and temperature had dipped down a bit making a perfect stay home situation, wrapped inside your blanket.

Spent major part of the day talking with family members away home. As a child, in my early days, I believed in an ideal world and always expected hunky-dory kind of situations in life. Relationship do keep on changing with time, some are for good but for some, you don't want the change to happen...but over which you don't have enough control.

Rishte

Kitne kushgwar bann jate hain wo rishte,

Barson mehnat se jo tarashe jate hain,

Hath chhil jate hain, aankhen sehar jati hain,

Var hathorohh ke senne pe khaye jate hain.

Uph na karke jo dil mein jhajab hota hain,

Dard ko dard ke marhum lagaye jate hain.

Tu sahi rah pakar aur usi pe chalta chal,

Log bhatak bhatak ke isi raste pe aate hai.

Karde apne aap ko tu usi ke hawale,

Log jisse khuda ya alampanah batatte hain 

                                                                               (Sukhbinder Singh, contentwriter.in)

Planned my Budget for the November month immediately after my mobile beeped with the 'salary received' message, this afternoon. Treated myself by preparing garma-garam 'Pyaji Pakodas' in the evening and then gifted self with an evening-walk under the umbrella when rain-god was pampering us with soft drizzle...

Subhratri, GudNite, Sabbakher

9:20pm

P.S.  M70 Updates: Looking forward for M70-W2D7 tomorrow - When Exercise Set 2 by Jack Braniff is scheduled.