Thursday, December 6, 2012

Day50: If your emotional abilities aren't in hand, if you don't have self-awareness, if you are not able to manage your distressing emotions, if you can't have empathy and have effective relationships, then no matter how smart you are, you are not going to get very far - Daniel Goleman

Thursday, 06-Dec-2102; 11:20pm
Electronic City, Bangalore

Why I am the way I am? I am yet to discover my self completely, in fact am far away from knowing WHO I am? It was a day which once again exposed myself to my weaknesses which make me so imperfect...

At office it was a hot temper day for me. Seeing minimal response from the Dev Team with whom I had to coordinate with in my new project (Cardinal Health Account). This afternoon before lunch, I wrote down a mail for their prompt reply and had asked them to ensure that the resources are well in place while imparting KT. This was escalated by them replying to analyze my words before writing mails. I had few verbal (but professional, I think so...my perspective) exchanges with them in front of their manager. This was clearly revealing my short-tempered nature. I did not have any control over-self at  that time. I bursted into anger. Their manager, their team... I was definitely on the weaker side. The positive side of this incidence was that, immediately after all this, they were quite ready to help at one go and they started taking us seriously. 
Another aspect of me is whatever I do, I put all my emotions, be it work or in maintaining relationships. Something not always recommended They say that the quality of a good leader is that he works amicably with all team getting all work done, however that is not the case with me. I lock horns when required. Will I ever become a good leader? A big question mark.. 

Early in the morning, went to the Gym (M70 - M3W7D21). I weighed 77.9 Kgs today after the workouts which despaired me for a while. I thought it was 77.4 Kgs after the workouts yesterday and an increae of 0.5 Kgs after workouts today. It's going to be tough, very tough...

Already entered into 07th Dec 2012 territory...

Narendra Gupta
12:11am, 07th Nov 2012



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